Journalnya Asti

Sunday Story

2011-09-25T05:48:00.000-05:00

Hari ini sebenernya tidak diawali dengan sesuatu yg menarik. Pagi2 dah gradag grudug karena sudah agak telat k gereja, terus harus nganter pesenan dulu. Jadi semuanya serba terburu2 banget.
Pas di gereja tadi ngederin messagenya agak menarik juga, karena lagi mythbuster week trus lagi ngebahas soal sex in marriage life.
Abis first service harus ngajarin Keila untuk persiapan ulangan tengah semester hari senin, jadi cabut aja ke coffee world di bawah gereja sambil ngobrol2 sama temen deket gw di gereja.
Selama ngobrol sama dia ttg pernikahan gw kayak diingetin lagi sama Tuhan tentang janji Tuhan yg indah.
Perkawinan itu bukan seperti di dalam dogeng di film2 atau di buku2 cerita anak2 yg dulu kita baca semasa kecil. Yang selalu menggambarkan semua indah and happily ever after. I don't know why people in the movie bussines created that image in our head. For my opinion that was so cruel :) ...

Soalnya pas seseorang memasuki sebuah pernikahan tidak selamanya indah, ada masa2 naik dan turunnya. Sebuah perkawinan di butuhkan saling pengertian, pengorbanan,pengharapan, kesetiaan dan cinta. Tapi yang paling utama dalam perkawinan kristen adalah adanya campur tangan Tuhan dalam SEGALA hal! Karena cinta bisa hilang kalau tidak dibina terus. Kadang masalah kecil bisa menjadi besar, keegoisan masing2 dapat menjadi penyebab juga. Tapi kalau ada campur tangan Tuhan di dalamnya pertikaian dan perselisihan dapat di redam dan diperkecil frekuensinya. Bukannya akan hilang total, tapi ada harapan dalam Tuhan. Tidak ada kata putus asa dan menyerah. Karena jujur aja kadang kalau dah mentok rasanya paling mudah kita mengucapkan kata2 cerai...dan seolah kalo kita sudah meninggalkan pasangan kita yang nyebelin itu kita bisa terbebas dari penderitaan yg kita alami. Yahhhh....kadang bukan itu juga solusinya kan? Cuman kalo ada yg mengalami abusive secara mental atau physic nah itu laen ceritanya yah...Mungkin harus ada tindakan juga lah pastinya.

Yah....kadang memang banyak case2 yang berbeda2 juga sih...
Perkawinan membutuhkan kerja keras dari kedua belah pihak bukan hanya dari satu sisi saja. Membutuhkan 2 orang untuk mempertahankannya.
Pasangan gw bukan seseorang yang sempurna...jauhhhh dari bayangan itu. Tapi selama gw ngejalanin perkawinan ini selama 12 taun dengan proses yang berliku2. Sekarang... Gw tau jawaban Tuhan dari doa gw yang dulu gw minta untuk diberi seorang pasangan hidup...Tuhan dah jawab dan Dia dah tepatin janjinya. Yang pasti rencana Tuhan indah pada akhirnya!

Macaroni & Me

2011-09-23T03:02:00.000-05:00

My lovely blogger,

Sebelum lupa and mumpung lagi niat ngeblog juga, aku cuman mo ngasi tau. Kalo sekarang aku ada usaha sampingan kecil2an yaitu jualan macaroni schotel/makaroni panggang/baked macaroni. 

Ide ini sih sebenernya udah lama banget ada cuman gak sempet di jalan2in. Sampai akhirnya pas bulan puasa kemarin aku  dapet pesenan dari temen kantor buat acara buka puasa bersama di kantor.

Terus pas lebaran aku kebanjiran pesenan dari sodara2 untuk hantaran lebaran ke relasi2 mereka. Nah dari situ aku memberani kan diri untuk melanjutkan usaha makaroni ini. 

Nah untuk sekarang ini aku cuman terima pesanan kalau weekend saja, karena kalau weekdays kan aku kerja jadi agak repot buatnya sama nganter2 pesenannya. Tapi kalo lagi liburan aku bisa terima pesenan di hari2 biasa.

 Pertama2 mulai masak lagi masih banyak kekurangan di sana sini akhirnya sekarang Puji Tuhan sudah mulai stabil lagi dalam memasak. Dan yang lebih buat semangat lagi aku dapet "repeat customer" berarti mereka suka makaroni ku. walaupun ada juga yang nganggep enteng ato ngeremehin usaha ku ini. Komen gak enak kadang aku terima juga. Pertama2 sih sedih, cuman orang2 terdekat ku kayak suami n sahabat2 selalu ngasi support dan komen positif yang membangun. Jadinya aku maju aja terus walaupun pelan2. Aku gak mau muluk2 kok sama usaha ini. Aku cuman mau ngejalanin dengan tekun aja sama sabar.

Memasak buat aku termasuk ngilangin stress juga jadi aku bener2 enjoy  ngerjainnya. Walaupun tiap weekend aku harus bangun jam 3 pagi buat  masak, aku nikmatin aja. Aku usaha ini buat Kara & Keila juga kok, buat nambahin mencukupi kebutuhannya mereka juga.

Dan aku percaya banget Tuhan dah ngasi kepercayaan gw buat usaha ini pasti Dia bukain jalan...amin kan :)

Au..ach...

2011-09-23T02:17:00.000-05:00

Sebenernya dah dari kemarin2 pengen ngeblog lagi. Cuman bingung aja mo nulis apaan. Padahal bahan yang ada di kepala banyak banget yang pengen di tulis. Tapi gak bisa di keluarin, kalo mo mulai nulis selalu mentok.

Nah yang sekarang lagi ngeganjel itu kalau ada orang yang suka asal kalo ngomong, tanpa melihat perasaan orang lain. Emang kelihatannya seperti bercanda dan jadi sesuatu yg lucu, tapi kadang itu bukan sesuatu lelucon yang patut di tertawakan. Heran juga sih maksud orang itu apa, mau dianggap "joker" ato mau dianggep "cool" supaya bisa di terima di lingkungan? Ato mau di bilang gaul?
Apa harus menyakiti perasaan orang lain untuk bisa di terima di lingkungan tertentu? Aneh aja menurut gw.

Yah...sebenernya lebih baik di pikir terlebih dahulu sebelum membuka mulutnya, agar yang keluar dari mulutnya bukan sesuatu yang sia2. Sangat disayangkan aja kalo sikapnya seperti itu dan orang tersebut tidak berasa apa2.

Yang ada males aja deket2 ma tu manusia...Mudah2an berubah lah, jangan asal ngejeplak yah!!!!

A good article!

2010-10-13T22:07:00.001-05:00

I just found and read a good article from Focus on The Family website. As a parent of tween age daughter this article help me a lot to understand them more :)

Managing Tween Anger

Help your tween grow into a thoughtful, discriminating adult who rules his own emotions.

by Shana Schutte

When I was a teacher I could never understand what happened to the 2nd graders during summer vacation. When I walked out the school doors in May and returned three months later, they were noticeably more grounded and grown up. It was part of a dramatic shift from being a child to preparing to be an adolescent.
The word "adolescent" might scare you because you're anything but ready for your third grader to grow up. However, because your eight-year-old is more emotionally aware and and intellectually advanced, you can help him understand more about himself — including how he handles his anger. In fact, these anger strategies apply to kids in the Tween years between the ages of 8 to 12.

When your child is angry, let him exercise more authority

My mother always says that sometimes you have to pick your battles and some aren't worth fighting. This couldn't be more true as your child progresses from being a child to an adolescent.
As your child grows intellectually and emotionally between the ages of eight and twelve, you will naturally want to grant him more responsibility so that he can grow into a responsible adult. This means that when he gets mad or rants and raves because he wants to buy a cheap toy with his hard-earned lawn mowing money, and you know it's a bad idea, you can give up your ground and let the consequences of his choice speak for themselves. This way, you can spare yourself a battle and he can grow into a calm, thoughtful and discriminating adult who doesn't allow his emotions to rule him.
Dr. Kevin Leman calls this "reality discipline" because reality serves up the discipline, not you. For some kids, especially those who are strong-willed and often demand that they get their way, it's a great way to go. Of course, you can't say yes to everything, but you can make it a practice not to say no just for the sake of saying it — and you can try to say yes often.

Don't only speak to your child about his anger when he's angry

With life pressures, it can be difficult to squeeze in teachable moments with your child. However, it's imperative that if you want your child to learn how to handle his anger in a constructive way, you'll need to speak with him when he's not angry.
Think back to the last time when you were really angry. Could anyone reason with you? Did your breathing accelerate? Were you talking in circles? Did you forgot what the other person said (if you were locked in battle)? Obviously, it's tough to reason with someone who is out of control with anger. That's why you'll need to speak with your child to make a constructive plan to handle anger when he's not angry.
As a part of helping your child, let him know that since he's getting older, he can take more responsibility in helping himself, since you won't always be there for him. Express sympathy by letting him know that it's normal to get angry sometimes. But also tell him that how he reacts to his anger is his choice and how he chooses will either make him more miserable or help him.
During one of your non-anger teachable moments, you can use a technique I used as a teacher. It's important that you use this technique shortly after the event because he may not remember what happened later. Ask him how he felt (in his emotions and his body), what happened that made him angry, how he responded, what the outcome was and how he could respond next time. Over time, he may begin to see the connection between his actions and the result.
In the beginning, it's reasonable to assume that he may not see how he contributed to the argument or blow-up with his siblings. However, I've seen this technique work with kids over a period of time. It gives them the opportunity to reflect inwardly and process the situation without you telling him how he should act. In short, it helps him see that his response is his responsibility.

Help your child create his own discipline plan

Once your child begins to see that his anger can be a problem, and that it's making his life difficult, you can calmly consult with him about the consequences if he responds inappropriately. First, you'll need to determine what "inappropriate" means. By discussing with him, ask him if it involves hitting someone, calling them names or spitting. Let him decide. I've found that most kids are amazingly honest about what is right and wrong when they're not threatened.
After you have created a list of what is not an acceptable response to anger, you can create another list of what he will do when he acts inappropriately. For example, will he put himself in time-out? Spend the afternoon in his room? Or give a prized toy to a friend?
You can also offer healthy alternatives to express his anger, such as scream outside until he feels better, punch a soft toy in the privacy of his room, or draw a picture about his feelings when he's angry.
Once your plan is complete and you've both agreed, both of you can sign it and post it somewhere obvious for future reference. This way, he can't say he was never part of the decision-making process, and it puts him in charge of his response.
Above all, whenever your Tween is angry, remain calm. This will let him know that you are on his side and working with him to help him master anger.

Devotion for today Oct 14, 2010

2010-10-13T19:21:00.001-05:00

Proverbs 31:10-20 (NIV)

¹⁰ A wife of noble character who can find?
       She is worth far more than rubies.
¹¹ Her husband has full confidence in her
       and lacks nothing of value.
¹² She brings him good, not harm,
       all the days of her life.
¹³ She selects wool and flax
       and works with eager hands.
¹⁴ She is like the merchant ships,
       bringing her food from afar.
¹⁵ She gets up while it is still dark;
       she provides food for her family
       and portions for her servant girls.
¹⁶ She considers a field and buys it;
       out of her earnings she plants a vineyard.
¹⁷ She sets about her work vigorously;
       her arms are strong for her tasks.
¹⁸ She sees that her trading is profitable,
       and her lamp does not go out at night.
¹⁹ In her hand she holds the distaff
       and grasps the spindle with her fingers.
²⁰ She opens her arms to the poor
       and extends her hands to the needy.

A Helping Hand

In the 1930s, jockey Johnny Longden was rammed in mid-race. While thundering steeds came up from behind, Johnny was thrown sideways off his horse. Seeing his predicament, another jockey reached out and attempted to push Longden back up on his mount. Unfortunately, he pushed too hard and Longden flew over the horse onto the other side. Still another jockey nearby grabbed him and was able to help him safely back on his horse. Amazingly, Johnny Longden won the race! A newspaper dubbed it “the ultimate impossibility.” Helping hands had not only saved him from severe injury and possible death, but allowed him to win the race.
As believers, we are to offer a helping hand to others as well. In Proverbs 31, we read of the virtuous woman who “extends her hand to the poor, yes, she reaches out her hands to the needy” (v.20). For centuries, the compassion of this woman of faith has been an inspiration to both men and women. She helps to remind us that extending ourselves to others is a biblical virtue to be exhibited by all believers.
There are many who are struggling or have fallen on hard times and need our assistance.
Who in your life needs a helping hand?

Your faith in God is proven when
You serve as one who cares;
Faith finds a way to love and help—
Puts action to your prayers. —Hess

God often sends His help by way of human hands.

The Devotion from Yesterday, Oct 7 2010

2010-10-07T19:31:00.001-05:00

Read: Deuteronomy 31:1-8

Hold My Hand

The waves of Lake Michigan were high and splashing onto the pier one day as I followed a young family out to a lighthouse. I overheard the young girl say to her father: “Daddy, please walk alongside me and hold my hand at this scary part.”

Sometimes life can be scary for us too: Loss of loved ones. Financial woes. Health problems. As we carry these heavy burdens and cares, we long for a strong hand to hold ours to keep us steady and secure.

When Joshua took over the leadership of Israel, Moses reminded him of God’s help in tough times. In the difficult days to come, Joshua would need to remember to trust God and His promises. Moses said, “The Lord, He is the One who goes before you. He will be with you, He will not leave you nor forsake you; do not fear nor be dismayed” (Deut. 31:8).

Isaiah 41:13 encourages us with these words from God: “I, the Lord your God, will hold your right hand, saying to you, ‘Fear not, I will help you.’ ” When life gets scary, God is with us, we can hold His strong hand.

This song by Lowell Alexander reminds us of God’s presence: “You will face mountains so steep, deserts so long, and valleys so deep. Sometimes the journey’s gentle, sometimes the cold winds blow. But I want you to remember, I want you to know you will never walk alone. . . . Jesus will be right beside you all the way.” He’ll walk alongside us and hold our hand at the “scary” parts.

Fears flee in the light of God’s presence.

The devotion for today, Oct 8 2010

2010-10-07T19:25:00.003-05:00

Read: John 14:1-6

Imagine

Our church’s young people did what they could to “construct heaven.” It was time for the spring banquet, and the creative teens used lights, Styrofoam, and other materials to turn the auditorium into their best idea of heaven.

The theme of the banquet was “I Can Only Imagine,” from the song by MercyMe. Our daughter Melissa helped transform the church. When I visited to see how the kids were doing, she was in the rafters hanging stars. The night of the banquet, my wife and I were able to hear one of Melissa’s friends sing the theme song as we all thought about this faraway place called heaven.

Of course, we never could have imagined that Melissa would be entering the real heaven just 6 weeks later. The imaginary would become reality.

Jesus told us about heaven as a way of untroubled our hearts. He said, “Let not your heart be troubled; . . . in My Father’s house are many mansions . . . . I go to prepare a place for you” (John 14:1-2).

Heaven is a prepared place for prepared hearts—a place of unimaginable beauty, splendor, and majesty. It’s where God is caring for our believing loved ones, and someday for us. Imagine heaven, and rejoice!

The Lord has promised to prepare
A place in heaven above—
A home where we will always be
With Him and those we love. —Sper

Jesus is preparing a place for us and preparing us for that place.

I'm Backkk!!!!!

2010-08-18T21:23:00.003-05:00

Hey, I'm Back for blogging again!

Finally...... :)
I think my last blog was on January 2007 and after that my journey was not stop over there. My life still moving on and I have a lot of story to talk about. I don't think I will talk about my missed 3 years story in one page but I'm going to make it short and simple. How about that?

Ok, let's start....
After we moved from St.Cloud, MN we lived in Henderson, NV it's about 10 minuets drive to Las Vegas Strip. We lived with my husband's aunt and uncle for a year. They're a wonderful person both of them off course. They helped us a lot while we lived there. Randall got a good job in Vegas, the company loved him and they're willing to give a sponsorship for applying H1 visa. Kara had a good public school in Henderson. Everything seems a dream come true for us after we tried for 7 years to stay in The States. We thought we're going to start our new chapter our life over there after Randall graduated from his Masters.

Long story short, but the lucky charm wasn't in our side that time. The lawyer screwed up with the paper work for the immigration department and we couldn't post the paper work on time. He seems didn't care because before the quota for the H1 gone he took 1 week vacation and we couldn't reach him at all. We already warned and told him to post the paper work by April 1st right the way, but he said we still have a lot of chance. Any way we didn't get the H1 visa and that mean we have to go back to Indonesia after our visa due.
That time was the hardest part in our life facing the reality. We cried, prayed, and asked God why that could happen to us.
But we realize that God's has a purpose for us in Jakarta and He already has plan for us too.

We moved to Indonesia again, 4 of us. We start our life again over here from zero. The support and helped from our big family means a lot for us. Thanks to them that we can get through the adjusting part smoothly even though that wasn't easy as you see. We really appreciate it for what they've done for us.
But the biggest helped is came from our Lovely Father in heaven! He never lets us down and never leaves us alone in every situation.

Right now we're live in Jakarta. I'm working as a librarian in the national plus school at South Jakarta area. Randall is working in a production house company at Kemang area. Our daughters growing so fast. Kara will turning 11 this coming October and she's in grade 5 right now. And Keila is 5, she's in kindergarten.

Once again why I believe that God's already has plans for us over here because in just 3 months we found a right church for 4 of us, IES (International English Service) that's the name of our church. The church is in English that made the girls easy to adjust for Sunday school and for Randall, the first time we came into IES he fell in love right the way. Because they have the full band for worship as so you know Randall's passion is in music. And like usual he joined in the music team and he really enjoy playing over there. We've been blessed a lot in the past 2 years with the IES community.

That was my journey in the past 3 years.

Love you all.... :)

We're gonna miss St.Cloud

2007-01-22T22:41:00.000-06:00

Ternyata sedih juga mo ninggalin St.Cloud. Padahal dari dulu gw nggak sabar buat keluar dr kota yg namanya St. Cloud ini. Abisnya nggak ada sesuatu yg menarik di sini.

Tapi ternyata selama ini gw salah banget. Setelah 5 taun tinggal di sini udah serasa hometown gw, sama kayak Jkt lah rasanya. Gw punya kehidupan di sini ada temen2 gw, ada gereja yg udah cocok, sekolahnya Kara, ada aktifitas yg gw senengin di sini, pokoknya semuanya udah settled di sini.

Cuman gw nggak ada pilihan lain, gw harus pindah cabut dr st.cloud. Ini semua demi Randy bisa dapet kerjaan karena di kota kecil kayak st. cloud kerjaan susah banget dapetnya.

Yach mungkin ini saatnya ngucapin good bye to St.Cloud, we never forget about this town.

2 More weeks!

2007-01-13T21:35:00.000-06:00

We just have 2 more weeks left to pack all of our stuffs.

We are moving to Nevada the end of this month. I can't talk a lot about the moving stuffs because I don't like to talk about that. Truthfully speaking...I prefer stay in St.Cloud!

I already settled in here. I have everything here; friends, church, activities and memory. But we have to move on our life, maybe this is the best for us especially for Randy to find a job. A job that will support us to live in the US. We try to give the best education for our kids, that's the reason why we wanna stay here.

My feeling like a roller coaster right now. I'm so scared, sad, excited and sometimes don't wanna think about it.

2006-09-27T21:14:00.000-05:00

Tadi pagi gw dapet kabar sedih banget...Suaminya sodara gw meninggal. Padahal dia masih lumayan muda umurnya, sekitar 40an lah. Michael aja baru umur 7 taun 'n Mesach baru umur 5 taun, Maureen (sodara gw) 33 taun umurnya. Kasian banget si Maureen masih muda udah ditinggal sama suaminya. Tapi mungkin Tuhan punya rencana buat mereka...rencana Tuhan pasti baik adanya.

Gw cuman bisa berdoa aja buat Maureen sama anak'nya biar mereka di kasi kekuatan 'n ketabahan buat ngejalanin semua ini.

Buat keluarga besar Adoe, gw sekeluarga ngucapin turut belasungkawa sedalam'nya.

Met jalan Mulia Adoe...

About Eddie Van Halen

2006-09-08T16:35:00.000-05:00

This is a cool fact about Eddie Van Halen and I just found out from my friend the history about him. That his part of Indonesian !!!!!

Eddie Van Halen
Brother of Alex Van Halen
Guitarist for rock group Van Halen
Father, with Valerie Bertinelli, of son Wolfgang.
Parents moved to Pasadena from the Netherlands when he and brother Alex were young. His father was Dutch, his mother Indonesian.

How cool is that, man!!!!
That proof in Indonesia have a lot of talented musician in their blood. hahhahahhaa....

2006-09-08T11:29:00.000-05:00

3 Bulan itu nggak bakalan lama...

Gw nggak tau nasib keluarga gw abis ini, sehabis desember semua bakalan berubah. Pasrah...itu doang yg cuman bisa gw bilang. Nggak habis'nya gw berdoa buat ngadepin yg bakalan terjadi, cuman semua tergantung sama Tuhan. Terserah Tuhan mo di bawa kemana keluarga gw sehabis ini.

Jangan di tanya dech gimana stressnya gw sama gimana takutnya gw ngadepin Randy bakalan lulus.

2 taun yg lalu gw udah pernah ngadepin situasi kayak gini, nah sekarang keulang lagi.

Gw pengen nyante' sampe november baru mikirin mau gimana, cuman mana bisa gw nyantai. Gw punya 2 anak yg harus gw pikirin masa depannya, gw harus ngebantuin suami gw mikir nyari kerjaan dimana.

Gw udah overwhelmed sama semua ini, sampe kalo masih aja ada org yg nyela ato ngejudge ttg laki gw ato keluarga gw. Itu namanya tegaaaa abiss....

2006-08-03T21:05:00.000-05:00

Mengapa Tuhan membiarkan Pintu-Pintu Tetap Tertutup?

Kisah Para Rasul 16:6-10

Tuhan berkuasa untuk membuka pintu yang tertutup karena bagi Dia tidak ada sesuatu pun yang terlalu sulit untuk diatasi. Namun, kadang-kadang Tuhan tetap menutup dan menghalangi sesuatu yang kelihatannya penting bagi kita. Mengapa Tuhan membiarkan pintu-pintu tetap tertutup?

Perlindungan. Mungkin Tuhan menjaga kita agar kita tidak melakukan kesalahan. Dengan kekuatan kita sendiri kita tidak akan mempunyai pengertian yang cukup untuk membuat keputusan yang tepat.

Pengalihan jurusan. Tuhan mungkin sedang membawa kita pada tempat yang baru. Rencana-Nya meliputi peluang-peluang yang lebih besar, kepuasan yang lebih dalam, area pelayanan yang lebih luas, produktivitas yang lebih besar, masa-masa penderitaan, atau sebuah kesempatan untuk memuliakannama-Nya. Tuhan menutup pintu-pintu penginjilan di Asia agar rasul Paulus melayani benua Eropa. Ketaatan Paulus menghasilkan buah-buah yang berlipatkali ganda jemaat-jemaat di Filipi, Tesalonika, dan Korintus serta memberikan lebih banyak pengertian bagi kita melalui surat-suratnya kepada mereka. Walaupun Paulus mengalami banyak penderitaan, ia tetap bersukacita melayani pekerjaan Tuhan.

Pengujian. Ketika Tuhan berkata "Tidak," sebenarnya iman kita sedang diuji, dan kita akan mengetahui apakah kita benar-benar percaya kepada Dia dan rencana-rencana-Nya.

Ketekunan. Ketika kita menghadapi pintu-pintu yang tertutup, itu justru akan menumbuhkan ketekunan kita, di mana ketekunan merupakan suatukarakter yang sangat dibutuhkan oleh orang-orang Kristen (Roma 5:3-5).Waktu yang Tepat. Tuhan menempatkan tanda-tanda perhentian di sepanjang jalan kehidupan kita agar kita dapat menunggu waktu yang tepat sesuai dengan kehendak-Nya.

Ketidaktaatan. Ketidaktaatan yang sudah berlalu dapat mempengaruhi pengalaman-pengalaman dan berkat-berkat yang akan datang. Ketika jalan kita terhalang, kita harus memandang pada Tuhan dan mencari kehendak-Nya.Apabila Tuhan menjawab "Tidak", bagaimana respon Anda?

Gw dapet renungan bagus ini dari sepupu gw Cio. Makasih Co buat emailnya yach....

I am Free (lyric)

2006-07-30T21:51:00.000-05:00

I am Free

(Newsboy)

Road Map: VCVCC

Verse:
Through You the blind will see
Through You the mute will sing
Through You the dead will rise
Through You our hearts will praise

Through You the darkness flees
Through You my heart screams I am free.....I am free

Chorus:
I am free to run (I am free to run)
I am free to dance (I am free to dance)
I am free to live to live for you (I am free to live for you)
I am free (I am free)
Yes, I am free (I am free)

2006-07-27T12:42:00.000-05:00

Hari ini gw buat sup sayur sama perkedel, rasanya jadi inget jaman gw kecil dulu. Kalo pulang sekolah makan sup sayur ma perkedel rasanya nikmattttt banget. Rasanya lebih nikmay lagi soalnya dimasakin sama pembokat gw nggak usah masak semdiri hihihihihhi...

Emang makanan rumah tuch paling enak rasanya ketimbang beli. Beli sich enak pastinya cuman kadang kalo keseringan beli makanan dari luar lama' eneg aja.

Masa kecil emang masa' paling enak kayaknya, makan tinggal minta terus makan...Nggak ada banyak pikiran, tanggung jawabnya cuman belajar doang. Kalo nggak ada duit tinggal minta bonyok. Yachhhh gitu dech jaman kecil....sekarang semua kalo mau apa' ya usaha sendiri lah...Mana tanggung jawabnya semakin tua semakin numpuk aja rasanya. Tapi itu lah manusia selalu berkembang. Apaan sich gw....Tau achhhhh tambah ngelantur gw ngomongnya hihihihihi...

2006-07-25T08:35:00.000-05:00

Bangun pagi biasanya sebagian besar orang seger, cuman gw bangun pagi udah bete badan gw berasa capekkkk banget. Sebel banget gw rasanya kalo pagi' udah bete bakalan kebawa seharian dech bad mood. Emang dasarnya dari dulu gw tuch bukan org yg tipe morning person. Gw tidur pagi bangun siang, beda sama laki gw yg tipe morning person. Bangun pagi bisa langsung bersemangat....

Gw males ngapa"in...nggak penting banget kan postingan gw pagi ini.

Thanks buddy...

2006-07-20T09:38:00.000-05:00

Kemarin sahabat gw ngingetin gw sesuatu yg bener" ngebuat mata sama hati gw kebuka banget. Selama ini gw selalu ada ketakutan sama kekhawatiran buat ngadepin idup gw setelah Randy graduate. Gw takut kalo Randy nggak bisa dapet kerjaan sama satu lagi apa bener Tuhan bener' manggil Randy buat fulltime di ministry. Nah kalo gitu gimana nanti segala urusan sama immigration status dan bla..bla..bla...Sama apa yg sebenernya Tuhan mau sama Randy,terus anak' gw gimana nantinya. Pokoknya semua ketakutan gw numpuk jadi satu. Gw berdoa, gw puasa cuman kadang gw masih blum bisa bener' berserah sama Tuhan 100%. Gw masih berjalan dg kekuatan gw sendiri, gw coba cari' jawaban yg gw pikir mungkin ada relatednya sama jawaban Tuhan. Cuman gw baru sadar itu semua adalah kemauan kedagingan gw aja untuk nyari instant jawaban "Tuhan". Yang Tuhan mau sebenernya kita harus sabar dan berdiam diri selama menunggu jawaban dari Nya. “Adalah baik menanti dengan diam pertolongan Tuhan.”(Ratapan 3:26)

Terus sahabat gw bilang ke gw, pandanglah Yesus yang terlebih besar dari masalahmu, jangan pandang terus ke masalah... tapi pandang Dia yang memberi jalan keluar..tiada yang mustahil bagiNya... Nah pas temen gw bilang gitu gw baru ngeh banget...Iya emang bener banget, gw selalu ngeribetin masalah yg gw hadapin terus. Emang gw selalu berdoa minta pertolongan Tuhan cuman gw blom berserah.
Kuasa Tuhan jauh lebih besar dari apapun yg ada di dunia ini. Palagi sama masalah' gw...nggak ada apa'nya lah. Dan temen gw juga ngingetin gw kalo janji Tuhan itu indah dan amin.
“Mata Tuhan tertuju kepada orang-orang benar dan telinganyaNya kepada mereka yang teriak minta tolong.” (Mazmur 34:16)

Emang gw harus lbh sabar, tekun, berserah sama beriman terus sambil nunggu jawaban Tuhan untuk masa depan keluarga gw ini. Ada pengharapan kok yang Dia janjiin sama gw sama Randy...
“Kesengsaraan itu menimbulkan ketekunan, dan ketekunan menimbulkan tahan uji dan tahan uji menimbulkan pengharapan.” (Roma 5:3-4)

Tuhan kan nggak bakalan ngasi pencobaan melebihi kekuatan kita.
"Pencobaan pencobaan yang kamu alami ialah pencobaan pencobaan biasa, yang tidak melebihi kekuatan manusia. Sebab Allah setia dan karena itu Ia tidak akan membiarkan kamu dicobai melampaui kekuatanmu. Pada waktu kamu dicobai Ia akan memberikan kepadamu jalan keluar, sehingga kamu dapat menanggungnya." (1 Korintus 10:13)
AMIN.....

Makasih banget buat semua temen' gw (especially my best buddy Andi acong), keluarga gw, dan suami gw yg selalu dukung satu sama lain dalam doa. Buat gw itu sesuatu yg nggak ternilai harganya...

Maling Kampret!!!!

2006-07-16T12:40:00.000-05:00

Gw hari ini lagi bener' kesel banget. Tadi pas mo pergi ke gereja, pas ke mobil tiba' si Randy nanya ma gw. "Loe liat dech ada yg aneh nggak?" gw kan bingung apaan juga yg aneh. Tapi pas gw liat tempat cd gw kok bersih, lah pada kemana cd' gw. Gw pikir Randy yg masukin ke dalem apt. semua cd' yg ada di mobil, ternyata si Randy bilang kalo di colong org. Gw ampe bengong...cd playernya yg biasa diplug in di colokannya lighter rokok juga amblas. ASTAGA!!!! mobil gw di bobol maling aja!!!!!

Mereka juga nyoba ngambil tape yg ada di mobil cuman nggak bisa, cuman pinggirannya doang yg lepas.
Asli gw pengen marah, pengen nangis, pengen ngamuk', yg pasti gw sebel, kesel dan laen' dech...
Mana sebagian banyak cd yg di situ punya gw lagi, soalnya cd' nya Randy baru aja dia ambilin di masukin ke dalem rumah.

Gw pengen cd' gw balik!!!! Pa lagi cd U2 gw semuanya, van halen,def lepard,extreme,jars of clay,pearl jam, audio adrenaline,RHCP, lenny kravitz and yg laen' dech...ada sekitar 20an.
Emang sich itu cuman barang bisa di beli lagi or di cari lagi, cuman gw sebel aja. Gitu' kan gw ngumpulin belinya juga pake duit emang pake daonnnn.....
Gw sich nebaknya tetangga gw bawah yg white trash kampungan kampret itu...
Mo lapor polisi kok males cuman gitu doang gitu loh, entar urusannya jadi panjang and ribet. Kita cuman telpon manager apt. gw aja sich cuman blom sempet ngomong langsung baru ninggalin pesen di hpnya doang.

Biar Tuhan yg bales dech tuch maling sialan....
Selamet tinggal cd" gw....hiks...hiks...hiks.....MALING KAMPRET!!!!!!!!

Bola

2006-07-09T18:59:00.000-05:00

Tadi gw nonton final bola perancis lawan italy. Yachhhhh kasian juga perancis kalah cuman emang itlay maennya bagus bgt, tapi pertandingannya tadi bagus bgt kok mereka dua'nya maennya bagus. Kejadian Zidane di kartu merah kasian juga di game terakhirnya dia sebelum pensiun malah dapet kartu merah.
Cuman yg paling buat gw terharu biru salute songs dari U2 lah buat penutupan FIFA world cup. U2 emang nggak ada matinya dech.....

Kara's best shot

2006-07-08T22:25:00.000-05:00

Kara took this picture for us.

Jahattttnya....

2006-07-08T21:47:00.000-05:00

Beberapa hari yg lalu ada org asal ngejeplak ngomong sesuatu yang AMAT SANGAT nyinggung perasaan gw. Bisa'nya ngeremehin laki gw di depan gw, udah berasa bagus banget apa dia??? Yachhh emang sich loe untung mulu idup loe, kerjaan udah dapet gajinya bagus pula semua serba cukup malah berlebih. Tapi kan bukan berarti bisa ngehakimin idup orang lain seenak jidatnya kayak gitu.
Gw sama Randy mungkin emang nggak untung secara materi, tapi kita untung udah diberkatin Tuhan sama anak" yg lucu" juga keluarga yg saling sayang satu sama lain.

Mungkin nanti nggak tau kapan tu orang bakalan kena batunya, gimana rasanya nggak enak banget di remehin org. Semua yg loe dapet nggak bakalan lama kok.....ambil gih...nimatin selagi loe bisa...
Hmmmm....nggak ada gunanya juga gw ngomongin tu org lagi...Take care...whoever you are....

Nulis lagi ach...

2006-06-22T08:52:00.000-05:00

Akhirnya gw mulai nulis lagi, setelah beberapa bulan absen. Abisnya gw males banget nulis blog, udah gitu nggak tau juga apaan yg mo gw tulis. Padahal banyak bgt kejadian' dalam beberapa bulan ini.
Pagi ini gw cuman pengen ngebagi dikit cerita gw, tentang gimana Tuhan udah bekerja dalam hidup gw hari demi hari and yg pasti kasih Dia nggak berkesudahan dech. Kalo gw nggak ada Dia gw bakalan udah putus asa bgt, cuman Tuhan selalu nguatin gw di setiap langkah gw.

Dari Keila sakit sampe masuk rumah sakit Tuhan ada sama gw 'n keluarga gw. Dia nguatin gw sama Randy ngelewatin hari" selama di rumah sakit. Terus Tuhan tetep narik gw sama Randy walaupun kita ngejauh. Udah beberapa bulan gw nggak ke gereja nggak berdoa nggak peduli sama Tuhan. Cuman bukan itu yg Dia mau dari gw, Dia tetep narik gw balik. And yg paling buat gw amazed bgt Dia narik gw pelan', Dia tunjukin gw satu demi satu gimana kerja Dia dalam hidup anak'Nya sampe akhirnya Dia manggil Randy sama gw buat kerja fulltime di ladang Nya. Itu sesuatu honor buat kita, cuman kita tetep doain terus sampe nanti pada akhirnya Tuhan akan tunjukin sama tempatin kita di mana tempat yg Tuhan mau.

Proses itu nggak bakalan gampang and mulus, cuman gw tetep berserah and nrimo (kata org jawa) sama Tuhan 100%. Supaya biarin kekuatan Tuhan aja yg bekerja bukan kekuatan kedagingan gw sbg manusia. Gw sama Randy lagi di proses, dibentuk, and diajar sama Dia untuk bener' siap nantinya jadi fulltime.
Pengalaman yg gw lewatin sebulan ini semuanya nakutin sebenernya tapi juga exciting banget di lain pihak.

Kadang gw tanya juga sama Dia, kenapa gw Tuhan?? Kenapa Randy??? Gw itu nggak ada bagus'nya cuman Dia ngeliatnya beda kali. Makanya emang bener kerja Tuhan itu misteri dan pasti bakalan indah pada akhirnya. Rencana Dia bukan rancangan kecelakaan kok, nggak ada yg kebetulan dalam Tuhan di setiap langkah hidup yg kita jalanin. Gw percaya itu...God has purpose for every single step in our life.

Ini verses yg gw ambil dari bacan renungan pagi ini dari luke 12:13-34.

Do Not Worry (Luke 12:22-34)

22Then Jesus said to his disciples: "Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. 23Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes. 24Consider the ravens: They do not sow or reap, they have no storeroom or barn; yet God feeds them. And how much more valuable you are than birds! 25Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[a]? 26Since you cannot do this very little thing, why do you worry about the rest?
27"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 28If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you, O you of little faith! 29And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. 30For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. 31But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.
32"Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom. 33Sell your possessions and give to the poor. Provide purses for yourselves that will not wear out, a treasure in heaven that will not be exhausted, where no thief comes near and no moth destroys. 34For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

Is that awesome????

I do believe in Jesus...I do...I do...

Keila 1st Birthday!!!!

2006-04-25T21:10:00.000-05:00

Today is Keila's birthday, she just turned one.
Happy birthday Keila !!!!!
God love you sweetie...May God bless you.

2006-04-22T19:25:00.000-05:00

Nggak tau kesambet apaan gw udah berapa hari ini lagi iseng banget nyari cd' lama. Sampe kadang gw kasetnya udah punya tapi gw cari cdnya muter' toko" cd bekas di st.cloud. Kemaren gw dapet 4 cd, pearl jam, rattle & hum, the best of van halen volume 1 sama soundtracknya film single. Gw juga lagi nyari t-shirt band yg lama"...gw mo koleksi lagi kayak dulu. T-shirt U2 kesayangan gw, yg gw beli dr jaman sma dulu udah robek di bagian keteknya. Tapi tetep aja gw simpen, entar pengen gw kasi frame hihihihihi....

Pas chatting ma Bobo berapa hari yg lalu aja dia tanya ttg kaos smashing pumpkin gw dulu. Gw aja asli udah lupa kalo gw punya tuch kaos jaman dulu.

Gw lagi pengen bernostalgila aja....gw seneng jaman' taun 80an akhir sampe 90an. Lagu'nya lbh enak' dari pada sekarang trus gaya orang'nya juga lbh cuek and ngegrunge. kangen banget gw jaman' dulu. Gw palingan bisa ngobrol nyambung nyeritain tentang itu semua sama Bobo doang ato sama beberapa temen gw yg seangkatan ma gw lah. Yang ngerasain jadul....Pokoknya gw mo tetep hunting terus dech sampe dapetin apa yang gw cari. Gw ubek' ebay sama tempat' yg ngejual barang' bekas. Gw tuch iseng banget sich???? yachhh....gw lagi nyari hobi baru and ternyata gw dapet dech sekarang...

Telpon Misterius????

2006-04-21T19:56:00.000-05:00

Hari ini ada kejadian aneh banget dech. Tadi pagi seperti biasa si Ovie telpon gw, pas dia dalam perjalanan ke kantornya sekitar jam 10 an dech. Kita ngobrol' bentar sambil gw nyupir juga ke TJ Maxx. Pas sampe di parkiran toko, Keila rewel banget gara' ngantuk. Gw bilang Ovie udahan dulu telponnya soalnya Keila rewel. Abis gitu gw gendong Keila masuk ke dalam toko. Sekitar 15 menitan dech di dalem toko hp gw bunyi, nah gw pikir si Randy yang nelpon gw. Pas gw liat ternyata Ovie lagi, gw halo'in ech nggak ada suaranya yg ada cuman bunyi kresek' doang. Gw matiin lah hp gw cuman kok nggak mau mati karena nggak ada tulisannya call ended. Gw pencet dua kali baru mati. Langsung gw telpon Ovie balik tapi kok masuk answering machine jadinya cuman gw tinggalin pesen aja. Terus gw mikir toh kalo emang penting kan ovie bakalna telpon gw lagi. Ech bener nggak lama abis gw mikir hp gw bunyi lagi, pas gw liat ternyata si Ovie lagi. Gw terima telponnya cuman sama kayak tadi nggak ada suara apa' cuman kresek' doang. Ya udah gw matiin lagi tapi sama kayak yg pertama gw nggak bisa matiin sekali doang harus 2 kali. Pas keluar dari toko gw telpon Ovie, gw tanyain dia kenapa tadi nelpon gw sampe 2 kali. Dia bilang nggak nelpon gw sama sekali. Sampe dia ngecheck di call log nya, terus telpon gw lagi. Dia bilang nggak ada nomer gw di outgoing call, terus nggak nemuin pesen gw juga.

Gw penasaran banget dong sama tuch telpon misterius, jadinya pas makan siang gw telpon Ovie lagi. And gw bilang ke ovie kalo gw ngecheck incoming call gw. Di listnya ada namanya ovie hari ini nelpon gw 4 kali. Yang ke 2 emang dari yanng tadi pagi gw ngomong ma ovie. Cuman yg ke 3 sama ke 4 itu jam 10.42 am sama 10.45 am. Nah dia bilang dia nggak nelpon gw cuman dia cerita kalo pas dia check' telponnya ada dialed selama 3 mnt ke nomer gw. Cuman dia nggak nelpon gw sama sekali, lagian nggak mungkin kepencet karena hpnya dia flip phone. Nah loh??????? Gw sama Ovie bingung aja seharian ini, bener' aneh kejadiannya.

Sampe sekarang kita nggak tau siapa yang nelpon ato kenapa itu telponnya. Asli bener' misterius....

2006-04-21T08:33:00.000-05:00

Udah lama banget gw nggak pernah maen basket lagi. Kemaren di gym room gw sama ibu' yg sekelas gw pada maen basket, seru banget. Cuman napasnya semua udah pada pendek, berasa mo mampus lari sana sini. Pas lagi ngerebound temen gw ngedorong gw ampe gw jatoh. Nah gw nggak tau gimana bisa jatohnya siku tangan gw sebelah kanan duluan yg nyentuh lantai kayu gymnya. Asli sakit banget!!!!! Cuman gw sok kuat aja dech, gw cuman meringis doang. Padahal gw udah mo nangis kali dech, sakit bgt beneran. Mana lantainya dr kayu keras gitu, terus siku tangan gw berasa panas, nyut'an sama ngilu banget. Abis gitu gw kompres ice pack aja. Bengkak sich tapi nggak gede banget. Sama kalo gw gerakin sakit ma ngilu dalemnya. Tadi malem gw ngobrak ngabrik nyariin arak cina yg di bawain nyokap gw taun lalu, tapi kok nggak ketemu. Soalnya manjur banget tuch pake arak cina, pasti langsung sembuh dech. Makanya gw juga tadi malem nggak bisa ceting lama' kayak biasanya. Abisnya kalo gw tekuk kelamaan siku gw buat ngetik berasa nyut'an. Yach....mudah'an cepet ilang dech bengkaknya sama ngilunya.

Tulalit

2006-04-18T23:50:00.000-05:00

Hari ini bolot gw kumat lagi...asli seharian gw tulalit banget. Otak gw berasa kosong, gw nggak bisa mikir apa'. Gw ngomong aja salah' mulu, sampe gw ngomong sama Rosa temen gw org mexico bisa ngoceh bahasa indo sama dia. Sampe dia ketawa ngakak', abis gitu gw di bales sama dia ngoceh' bhs spanish hihihihihihihi... Gw paling benci banget kalo lagi bolot gini. Kayak sekarang gw ngeblog aja nggak ada yg penting gini yg gw omongin. Basiiiiiiiiiii.............

Si Randy paling males ngomong ma gw kalo lagi kayak gini. Dia mendingan maen gitarnya dari pada ngomong ma gw nggak nyambung mulu.

Nggak Bisa Tidur

2006-04-17T02:29:00.000-05:00

Sekarang udah jam 2.28 am, cuman gw blom bisa tidur juga. Untungnya ada Bobo sama Ucok di YM, gw jadinya chatting ma temen gw ini lah. Seru juga apalagi ma Ucok udah lama gw nggak ngobrol ma orang gila yg satu itu. Gw seneng banget kalo ngobrol ma temen' lama gw. Abisnya selalu nyambung aja, kalo ngelucu nyambung ngomong yg serius juga nyambung banget. Walaupun jauhan cuman berasanya deket aja kita ngobrol nya bisa sampe ngakak'. Ucok di OZ Bobo di JKT nah gw di sini dech.

Padahal Randy udah ngorok dari tadi, gw bakalan tambah susah tidur aja dech nich. Payah nih...gara' tidur siang bentar aja gw nggak bisa tidur dech sekarang.

Happy Easter

2006-04-15T20:15:00.000-05:00

He is risen just like He said!!!

God's love is true and everlasting.

Happy Easter to you're all...

2006-04-15T12:57:00.000-05:00

Gw emang nggak muda lagi buat gaya". Cuman ya begini apa adanya gw...Dari jaman dulu sampe sekarang emang gw nggak pernah dandan. Gw selalu seneng make jeans robek" sama t-shirt, sendal jepit or snickers. Maen skateboard, nongkrong, sama naek gunung itu kerjaan gw. Nggak begaul ke club' kayak orang kebanyakan. Gw nggak bisa jadi cewek yang manis", bukan gw banget. Nggak semua orang di sekeliling gw sekarang tau gw sebenernya kayak gimana. Makanya gw berasa kayak di dunia yg bener' beda banget sekarang. Kalo di tanya sengsara apa nggak ya sengsara lah....Capek banget kalo ada org yg ngeresein gaya gw...Gw emang kayak gini lah...rese' amat sich loe.

Siul

2006-04-10T07:58:00.000-05:00

Pagi ini ada kejadian aneh banget sama si Keila. Randy lagi becanda maenin si Keila sambil siul'. Pas udah lewat 20 menitan dari maen" tadi, tiba' kita ngedenger ada orang siul" cuman suaranya pelan gitu sama putus'. Gw sama Randy liat'an, abisnya di sangkain randy gw yg siul. Gw juga nyangkain itu randy yg lagi siul' cuman kok nggak kenceng kayak biasanya. Abis gitu kita ngeliatin Keila di deket pintu kamar lagi maenin hp maenannya Kara sambil bibirnya monyong terus siul'. Idihhhhhh Keila setaun aja blom udah bisa siul dikit'....kocak banget.

Tentang Shinta

2006-04-08T16:24:00.000-05:00

Tadi gw dapet pesen di YM dari Shinta. Ngasi tau kalo bokapnya meninggal sabtu kemaren jam 2.30 pm WIB. Abis gitu gw langsung telpon Shinta ngasi turut belasungkawa. Abis bersedih' ngedengerin ceritanya Shinta, abis gitu kita ngobrol ngalor ngidul and sampe kita ngomonngin ttg cinere blok A kita tercinta. Suka duka tinggal di blok A cinere, kenangan demi kenangan kita bahas. Asli kangen gw jadinya balik jaman itu lagi.

Udah gitu gw di FS kemaren nemuin temen lama gw juga si Acong, asli gw seneng banget. Soalnya udah dari kapan' tau gw emang nyariin dia, yachhh kali aja tu anak satu ada FS. Ternyata gw nemu dech kemaren...Seneng bgt gw!!!

asli gw seneng bisa ketemu temen' lama gw lagi lewat FS.

Rokok

2006-04-04T15:01:00.000-05:00

Judulnya udah 7 taun gw berenti ngerokok. Tapi kadang gw pengen banget ngisep sebatang aja kalo bisa. Cuman kok susah bener yach...gw abisnya takut ma si Randy di marahin kalo ngerokok lagi. Gw juga males berantemnya cuman gara' rokok sebatang. Kadang gw coba minta ijin cuman gw udah tau jawabannya pasti nggak boleh. Tetep aja gw kadang minta ijin lagi, bolak balik. Dan jawabannya tetep sama, nggak ya nggak !

Kadang gw mau nekat aja, tapi kesannya kok gw nggak ngerhargain suami gw banget. Cuman gw kadang ampe bete mo ngerokok nggak bisa, yang ada gw ngemil makanan aja banyak'. Yang penting mulut gw ngunyah.

Kebiasaan gw ngerokok dr smp kelas 3 sampe gw kuliah, dari ngumpet" sampe cuek aja. Gw berenti gara' gw dulu pacaran ma Randy sampe sekarang. Abisnya si Randy nggak ngerokok dan dia selalu ngomel' kalo deket ma gw. Dia selalu bilang kayak nyium asbak, kalo mo nyium gw. Rokok gw selalu di patah'in padahal udah gw umpetin tapi tetep aja dia cari sampe ketemu terus di patahin. Yachhhh...dari pada gw buang' duit beli rokok di patahin mulu mendingan gw ngalah lah berenti aja.

Cuman akhir' ini gw kangen banget pengen ngerokok lagi...kepengennya tuch bener' ngebuat gw bete sama capek sendiri.

Hendry my best buddy!!!!

2006-04-03T15:35:00.000-05:00

Pas gw nyalain komputer tadi pagi ternyata di YM ada si Hendry lagi online juga. Gila udah lama banget gw nggak pernah ngeliat dia online. Semenjak abis dia kawin jadi jarang banget online, nggak kayak dulu' lagi. Hendry ini sahabat gw dr jaman sma. Anaknya gila abis, gw selalu manggil dia Hendry bocor. Abisnya otaknya bocor nggak pernah beres. Tadi gw curhat bentar ma dia, terus ngobrol' bentar juga. Rasanya beda banget ngobrol sama org yg bener' tau loe.

Hendry tuch tau banget bagus'nya gw sama jelek'nya gw. Sama aja sama gw tau dech gimana dia tapinya dulu lah, sekarang gw nggak tau.

Gw seneng banget bisa chatting lagi ma my best buddy. Padahal gw udah seminggu ini kelimpungan kayak org gila. Abisnya gw pengen banget ngobrol ma temen' lama gw, gw pengen ketawa ngakak, gw kepengen gila'an lagi and gw kepengen bener' jadi gw yg dulu.

Kedengerannya ngebosenin banget emang blog gw isinya cuman keluhan gw kangen ma temen' gw di jkt mulu. Yach...cuman emang itu yg gw rasain.

Cuman buat hari ini gw udah cukup terhibur sama my best buddy Hendry bocor!!!!

Miss them!

2006-04-01T21:24:00.000-06:00

Miss you guys!!!!!

Gw nggak bisa ngomong apa'...Gw cuman pengen pulang ketemu sama loe semua.

Tinggal di sini tanpa temen tanpa sodara and keluarga pait bener rasanya...

Last gig

2006-03-31T22:46:00.000-06:00

Gw baru aja pulang dr nonton bandnya Randy (Doorstep Paradise) di campus rec. center. Sebenernya tuch gw capek ma ngantuk banget hari ini, cuman gw pikir' kapan lagi nonton DSP. Mereka kan udah bubar, tinggal cuman beberapa gigs lagi abis gitu abis riwayat mereka. Pas tadi nonton mereka maen akustik, bagus banget!!!!! Gw tadi nonton sambil nangis...Ya iyalah ini performance terakhir yg bakalan gw tonton. Mereka berempat itu berbakat bgt sebenernya, cuman yachhh tambah lama tambah nggak sehat aja kondisi bandnya. Udah nggak pada sejalan lagi, mau nggak mau bubar lah. Lagian juga bassistnya ngundurin diri dr band, terus vocalistnya pindah sekolah ke Manketo.
Yach paling nggak impiannya si Randy buat band terus buat cd, ngerekam lagu'nya udah kesampean.
Yang tabah yach Ren...bakat loe di musik nggak bakalan berenti gara' DSP bubar kok.

Keep on rockin' man!!!!

Mie GM mari mari sini...

2006-03-29T15:39:00.000-06:00

Ini contoh dari seseorang yg frustasi kepengen banget mie GM, tapi nggak pernah kesampean sampe sekarang.

Jauh di mulut deket di mata ini judulnya...nyam nyam nyam...

Jalan" Iseng

2006-03-28T20:46:00.000-06:00

Hari ini judulnya gw nggak masuk kelas. Berhubung Kara masih nggak enak badan jadinya gw jagain dia di rumah aja. Ech udah gitu si Randy pake acara ketularan stomach flu pula jadinya dia juga di rumah nggak masuk kelas juga. Pas rada sorean gw beresin bajunya anak' yg udah pada kekecilan, abis gitu gw sumbangin dech tuch baju' yg udah nggak kepake ke savers. Abis dari savers gw mampir ke tuesday morning. Maksudnya sich cuman mo liat' doang ech yg ada gw dapet celemek $ 2 lumayan lah. Jalan" gw akhirnya gw lanjutin lagi ke TJ Maxx, di sana juga maksudnya cuman liat' doang ech nemu celana bahan $ 10 lumayan....

Tuch kan kalo nggak ada niatan beli apa', pasti bisa dapet barang" yg murah" terus lumayan pula. Cuman kalo udah diniatin beli, udah muter' kemana' nggak dapet apa yg di cari. Sial bener emang nasibnya dech...

Gw asli seneng bgt dech jalan' iseng gw sore tadi ngehasilin sesuatu hihihihihihi.....

Angels in the out field

2006-03-28T09:37:00.000-06:00

My angels...
My precious...
My lovely daughters...
And our God beautiful gifts that we ever got!

My Beautiful Country !

2006-03-26T16:18:00.000-06:00

These are just a glimpse of my beautiful country.

Awesome huh???

Pait Bener...

2006-03-26T14:13:00.000-06:00

1o Taun itu semua udah lewat...tapi baru sekarang gw dapet jawabannya. Jawaban yang sebenernya dulu gw tunggu tunggu banget. Cuman tetep aja gw ngehargain banget jawaban itu sekarang walaupun semuanya udah lewat. Mungkin itu semua nggak bisa balik lagi kayak dulu, cuman biarin aja semua ini gw simpen sendiri.

Sakit !!!!

2006-03-26T10:24:00.000-06:00

Dari kemaren gw sakit, makanya gw tiduran terus di kamar. Gw kayaknya masuk angin berat. Yang ada muntah' sama mencret' mulu...kacau dech nich perut gw. Tapi lumayan sich jadinya berasa rada kurusan hihihihihii...padahal badan gw udah lemes abis. Setiap makan keluar lagi, asli nggak ada makanan yg nyangkut di perut judulnya. Yang ada gw minum peptobismol sama ginger ale doang. Mana pala gw pusing bgt lagi.....nggak enak dech. Gw sakit' gini tapi tetep aja harus ngurusin anak' gw ma laki gw. Kampret bener emang....

Minggu Lalu...

2006-03-23T15:47:00.000-06:00

Minggu lalu Cecil dateng ke St.Cloud buat ngisi spring breaknya. Selama seminggu Cecil nginep di tempat gw, gw jadinya ada temennya selama seminggu kemaren.
Udah lama juga gw nggak jalan" sama temen gw. Kemaren pas Cecil di sini kita jalan' terus ngopi" bareng, seru juga. Abisnya gw biasanya stuck sama krucil' gw mulu, nggak bisa kemana'.
Pas Cecil balik ke Duluth si Kara jadi kesepian, dia nggak ada temennya lagi buat diajakin maen. Selama Cecil di St.Cloud Kara maen terus sama Cecil. Setiap pulang dr sekolah pasti dia nanyain Cecil terus. Kara bilang ke gw dia sedih tante Cecil pulang ke Duluth...hihihihihi...kasian si Kara.

Holding Hands!

2006-03-08T23:58:00.000-06:00

When everything is gone from your hold, all of your dream, your hope, and your future plan. Remember one thing that God always hold your hand.

Amen!

PS: I took this from my old blog.

Your own your own!

2006-03-07T18:57:00.000-06:00

Gila emang phrase "your own your own" cuman itu beneran ada. Apalagi kalo loe lagi ngalamin kesulitan and kesusahan. Jarang ada orang yg bakalan dengan suka rela nawarin bantuan or perhatiannya. Apalagi jaman kayak sekarang gini...palingan ada yg nyoba basa basi doang biar di anggep ada perhatiannya ma orang. Basi lahhhh judulnya.....

Biar sodara sekali pun boro' ada yg nanya gimana keadaan loe or gimana kabar loe? Padahal mereka tau apa yg lagi kita jalanin sekarang. Palagi temen mana ada yg mau dealing ma orang susah. Kecuali loe bisa nemuin temen yg bener' bisa diajakin susah ama seneng. Cuman palingan itu satu dr sejuta orang di sekitar loe. Pas loe butuh orang buat support and nguatin loe, cuman nobody care sister, your own your own!

Gimana rasanya kalo loe bener' ngerasa takut, sendirian, bingung, nggak tau harus ngapain, gimana caranya loe harus buat keputusan dalam ngadepin masalah ini, kayaknya segudang pertanyaan nyangkut di kepala loe. Udah gitu karena loe udah gede udah berkeluarga jadinya org' pada backoff sama loe. Loe mo nangis, loe mo teriak', loe mo marah' ma ngamuk' tapi nggak ada yg peduli lagi. Yang ada hati loe jadi beku terus anti sosial...

Apes emang nasib gw kali yach...bukan masalah gw, cuman gw harus nanggung juga...Udah gitu gw jadi freak out gini karean gw nggak tau mo ngapain ama gimana?????

Sebenernya semua keluarga dr pihak gw udah apad mo turun tangan cuman gw nggak mau ngelangkahin seseorang. Gw sangat ngehargain perasaannya tu org. Cuman....

Yachhh kalo loe pada' masih muda, single, nggak terlalu ada drama dalem idup loe nikmatin aja dech masa' indah loe....Kalo itu udah ilang susah untuk loe dapetin lagi.

If someone out there still think that I'm your best buddy, please say something!!!!! At lease couple words but that words really come from your sincere heart. I need that...I need alot of support from you guys and prayers, too....

Thanks!!!

Kagak bisa tidur!

2006-03-07T04:18:00.000-06:00

Sekarang jam 4.18 pagi pagi buta!!!!

Gw kebangun gara' si randy ngamuk' ma tetangga bawah gw. Lagian mereka udah bolak balik di ketokin gara' pagi' buta masang musik kenceng', ech tetep aja loh kagak berubah juga udah berbulan'. Dulu tiap weekend doang lama' tiap malem...bajingan emang tu bule. Dia nganggep gara' kita bukan org putih kayak mereka kali jadi nggak dihargain sama sekali. Ada toleransinya kek dikit. Kalo anak gw nangis mereka complaint, ya elah ini bayi gitu loh mo di gimanain. Jadinya loe ngebales kita ma masang musik kenceng' tengah malem....dasar redneck loe!!!!!!

Bule kampret, bapet, babi..................Maki' kan gw jadinya.

Besok pagi gw bakalan laporin ke managment property gw lagi. Biar mampus....

Cuman mo ngasi tau aja...

2006-03-06T21:15:00.000-06:00

Gw cuman mo ngasi tau aja nich....

Buat yg iseng baca blog gw, gw mo kasi tau sekalian kalo gw udah nggak ada telpon rumah sekarang. Jadinya kalo mo nelpon ke hp gw aja or kalo perlunya ma laki gw langsung aja telpon ke hpnya dia.

Gitu doang kok pemberitauan dari gw buat hari ini.

Gw mo maen game lagi ach..........

Daaaaaggggggg semuanya..........

Ketawa ngakak!!!!

2006-03-01T22:50:00.000-06:00

Gw udah lama nggak ngakak' ketawa kayak tadi. Gila gw ceting ma sohib' gw dr jaman sma ngakak mulu. Udah lama banget gw nggak ngobrol' sama Bobo 'n Wawan, asli masih aja tetep kocak banget tu anak dua. Padahal gw juga bingung kadang mereka ngomongnya nggak jelas gitu. Yachhh kali aja gw yg emang tulalit otaknya, seperti biasa lah....gw tulalit. Kangen gw jaman' sma apalagi pas angkatannya si Bobo ma Wawan seru banget anak'nya. Dasar pada gilaaaaaa......

Mayan lah hari ini gw terhibur gara' ceting ma temen' gw yg gila gila itu....

Feb 25th

2006-02-26T00:01:00.000-06:00

Hari ini Keila 10 bulan....Happy 10th month my baby Keila!!!!!

Dia tambah gede tambah lucu banget. Kerjaannya ngejambakin rambutnya gw sama kakaknya. Kalo nggak suka ngegigitin perut gw, udah tau gw buncit gini perutnya sekarang. Kara Keila itu hiburan gw selalu setiap gw lagi sedih mereka ngebuat gw ketawa. Cuman kadang' mereka juga ngeselin gw.

But anyway, I really love them both!!!!!

Cemen!!!

2006-02-24T17:05:00.000-06:00

Cemen!!!
Itu yg gw rasain sekarang
dalam ngejalainin hidup gw ini.

Gw coba kuat,
gw coba tabah,
gw coba nggak ngeluh,
gw coba nggak nyerah....

Cuman....
gw udah nggak kayak dulu lagi.
Gw sekarang beda banget.

Gw sekarang...
penakut n cemen
Dan gw tau itu bukan gw banget!!!!

Lonely !

2006-02-24T16:47:00.000-06:00

Hari ini gw lagi bertiga doang di rumah sama anak'. Si Randy lagi ke Marshall ngurusin kerjaannya, besok malem baru balik. Gw mo ngapain yach malem ini??? Mana netflix gw blom dateng lagi hari ini jadinya gw nggak ada film dech. Yach palingan gw maenan aja sama Kara 'n Keila.

Sebelum gw nulis blog tadi gw buka' frenster terus baca' testimonial gw dr temen' gw. Jadi kangen gw sama temen' gw. Gw kangen gila' an kayak jaman dulu lagi....yach mungkin nggak bisa lah ya gila'an kayak dulu. Paling nggak ketemu ma anak' terus ngakak' dech...

I never laughed really really loud like used to. Darn it !!!!

Huaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa......................Where are all my buddies????????

Gw lama' bisa gila kali dech nich...idup tanpa ada temen. Gw emang idup buat temen...Itu yg si Randy selalu nyindir ke gw. Tapi emang bener sich gw nggak bisa idup kalo nggak ada temen. Kalo si Randy sich nggak masalah nggak ada temen asal ada gitar'nya.

Hmmmm....

2006-02-19T21:20:00.000-06:00

Gw nggak tau mo cerita apaan sebenernya...Kepala gw udah penuh abis, semua numpuk jadi satu udah kayak gado' di kepala gw.

Gw udah nggak bisa nyari jalan lagi buat semua masalah yg lagi gw adepin ini. Gw coba tenang, sabar sama nrimo, cuman kayaknya hari ini gw udah sampe puncaknya. Gw nggak kuat lagi buat mikir.

Udah banyak pikiran gini, gw nggak ada temen ato sodara yg bisa gw samperin terus gw curhatin. Tambah penet aja rasanya otak gw jadinya....

Gw kesepian, gw nggak percaya sama siapa' di sini. Masalah yg gw adepin sekeluarga ini bener' ribet, udah nggak bisa ngandelin sama kekuatan diri sendiri lagi. Satu'nya org yg bisa nolong mungkin cuman Tuhan doang kayaknya. Gw harus serahin semuanya sama Dia dech....gw udah lepas tangan.

Tuhan.....mo di bawa kemana idup keluarga gw ini. Kalo emang harus balik, gw terima kok dg senang ati. Cuman kasian anak' gw...

Tapi kalo emang kita bisa tetep di sini tolong bukain jalan dong...

Gw bener' serahin semuanya balik ke Tuhan lah...gw pasrah....

Gw kangen bokap sama nyokap gw banget....mereka yg bisa nguatin gw tiap hari selama gw ribet sama masalah gw ini.

Sama setiap gw ngeliat Kara sama Keila gw bisa ngedapetin kekuatan hati. Gw harus kuat buat anak' gw, itu yg terus gw ingetin ke diri gw sendiri. Kalo nggak ada mereka gw nggak bakalan kuat and bertahan kayak gini dech.

Cuman sebenernya gw tuch udah ancur'an rasanya....Nggak ada org yg ngehibur, kecuali anak' gw yg ngebuat gw senyum pas gw nangis. tapi nggak ada org gede yg bisa gw ajak ngomong sama ketawa.

Gw kangen JKT!!!!!

Pusssingggg

2006-02-08T12:41:00.000-06:00

Asli gw sebel banget sama mobil gw. Sekarang transmissionnya jebol, nggak ada duit buat beli mobil baru. Abisnya kalo ngebenerin juga mahal banget, bisa' lbh mahal dr harga mobilnya sendiri. Nggak ada mobil gw juga repot nggak bisa kemana'. Mana si keila masih kecil bgt kalo naek bis yg ada repot banget apalagi winter gini. Dingin banget udaranya....nunggu bisnya aja udah berasa kayak berdiri di dalem freezer, malahan bisa lbh dingin lagi.

Yachhhh nasibbbbbb...tau ach males gw mikirinnya, mentok.....

I Miss...

2006-02-07T16:38:00.000-06:00

I miss my families.
I miss Indonesian foods.
I miss my hometown.
I miss the traffic in Jakarta.
I miss the hot weather.
I miss the beautiful beaches, seas, ocean and mountains in Indonesia.
I miss warung' pinggir jalan.
I miss my friends especially my bestest friends.
I miss (nongkrong) hangout with my friends.
I miss all about Indonesia !!!

Sunday

2006-02-05T18:20:00.000-06:00

This morning we went to the church, the service was so awesome today. Everything was perfect, the worship, the message, and the athmosphere in church. I felt blessed....

I'm praying for my friend Stephanie and her unborn baby today, because her baby has a heart problem. The baby have to go on surgery after a couple of days of birth.

I prayed for Steph, the baby's health and for the doctor's wisdom as they do surgery. I believe that our Lord Jesus will give Steph, Sal, and the kids strength get through all of this.

And also I am praying for Norita and Erik Schimtz...Norita had a miscarriege last friday.They've been trying to have that baby for last couple years.

But I believe that God has His own plan for their life.

I found the verse from the bible that said,

And He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My strengeth is made perfect in weaknesss." Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9

When I read that verse I remmebered Steph and Norita...I will keep praying for both of them and their families.

I love you guys...hang in there!. Ask Him to hold your hands and your hearts.

Start my blog

2006-02-02T17:20:00.000-06:00

Ini blog ke 2 gw...tadinya gw ada blog di modblog. Cuman gara' modblog sering ngehang sama goblog makanya gw ganti dech di sini. Abisnya temen' gw juga banyak yg di sini sich. Jadinya biar seru gw ikutan aja di sini hihihihi...
Ya udah dulu achhhh segini dulu buat pertama kali entar gw tulis lagi....